Idiot

Its gone 2am, and I am shattered. Have been none stop all day, and all week. Trying to get clear as will be away half of next week in Ukraine.

Am feeling like a bit of an idiot today

Yes, not that unusual - with so much work, and constantly writing out lists that I only get a quarter of the way down while back log of tasks build up its difficult to stay focused. Am trying not to st myself much shorter term targets, concentrate on these and only confuse myself the the big plan when I have to!
Another reason for being an idiot is today I made a decision, one which might sound fucking stupid!

I have had a site/project in various stages of developement for last 2 years…. work began on it, ceased, another agency took over, did not understand code so left after doing nothing but messing code up further. Then took on third developers who started again from scratch. The system they have now “completed” is less than worthless - its not even integrated with payment service providers, let alone capabale ff running complicated site generation scripts. I could see project digressing from my spec, but every issues I raised was addressed and to be attended to later, now they admit many features cannot be added without re coding much of what they have done. Yet they have asked for a final payment!
I dont expect to see a penny of it returned, I am prepared for the money to fly out to India (yes I know, what did I expect by outsourcing there) and demanding it back. Were it not for my hectic schedul I would be very tempted.

Anyway, what was this site? A complicated affiliate and white label system allowing creation of almost any sort of fully customisable and feature rich dating site in any language, affilaite would have a simple admin interface to control a network sites, members and referred affilaites. I am now director for a company doing exactly this, with a system which had millions invested in it, not thousands.

So here comes my stupid decision. I am not stopping this project! Infact I am reverting to use code which was scrapped a year ago. Why? Mainly because I can’t let go…. but also because looking back at what was built it was very good, just incomplete - this is its saving grace. I am going to strip back its features and scalabilites and focus it in one area, not dating and look for an alternative revenue stream not subscrpition based.

….this post took 2 nearly 2 hours to write, it was interrupted many times, I apologise if was boring, disjointed or too long … here’s some random japanese shit to make up for it.